I am overwhelmed. I have subscribed to a few of the very many presenters here in Substack now... and I am always just the least bit guilty or feel like it all the time? Does that make any sense? I bet most people have no trouble subscribing to fifty or sixty presenters here and never feel a twinge when hearing their screen reader say upgrade to founder or paid. Me... I am habitually guilty and a selfish Cheapskate. You would think that by now and after all these years taking and not thinking... a shameless bum like me would have a thicker skin but I do not... not all the time. I'm not that stable these days... probably never was as stable as I thought I was. So, some days like today I cringe and wince and whinge with every page that asks me to give more...
I even stopped listening to NVDA screen reader read me Coffee and covid because; ONE i disagree with a lot of it and; TWO I am too cheep to pay up.
...
How dare I write like this?
because I feel better being honest about why I am falling behind all the latest news...
but it is not just the guilt about not paying... it is just that I feel helpless faced with the tidal wave of bad news... even the ripples of goodness from this community leaves me numb. Most of the best solutions I am hearing exclude bums like me in one way or another... or I am just using my sad state as an excuse?
Also taking a close look at myself and being honest makes me sort of sick because I am not the guy I always tried to tell myself I was...
All I can say is I am sorry Humanity for the state of the state and for our domestication that I ignored for most of my life. Now that I am an old toothless blind bum... now I pay attention and for that I am sorry.
all that said thanks for all the hard work community and I'll try and try more...
But just now I am feeling so sorry... for me... or a Harper's self pity storm sounds like this: Jimmy Eat World - My Sundown https://youtu.be/y5D8Bieylck
I am a very sorry and trying Human Being... LOL gotta laugh or I'll keep crying...
Don't worry, the CDC has made a deal with multi-millionaire fauci and billionaire gates to fund dozens of Chinese operated bio labs all for the sake of saving us from non-existent viruses.
Hi Just think, Hello community,
I am overwhelmed. I have subscribed to a few of the very many presenters here in Substack now... and I am always just the least bit guilty or feel like it all the time? Does that make any sense? I bet most people have no trouble subscribing to fifty or sixty presenters here and never feel a twinge when hearing their screen reader say upgrade to founder or paid. Me... I am habitually guilty and a selfish Cheapskate. You would think that by now and after all these years taking and not thinking... a shameless bum like me would have a thicker skin but I do not... not all the time. I'm not that stable these days... probably never was as stable as I thought I was. So, some days like today I cringe and wince and whinge with every page that asks me to give more...
I even stopped listening to NVDA screen reader read me Coffee and covid because; ONE i disagree with a lot of it and; TWO I am too cheep to pay up.
...
How dare I write like this?
because I feel better being honest about why I am falling behind all the latest news...
but it is not just the guilt about not paying... it is just that I feel helpless faced with the tidal wave of bad news... even the ripples of goodness from this community leaves me numb. Most of the best solutions I am hearing exclude bums like me in one way or another... or I am just using my sad state as an excuse?
Also taking a close look at myself and being honest makes me sort of sick because I am not the guy I always tried to tell myself I was...
All I can say is I am sorry Humanity for the state of the state and for our domestication that I ignored for most of my life. Now that I am an old toothless blind bum... now I pay attention and for that I am sorry.
all that said thanks for all the hard work community and I'll try and try more...
But just now I am feeling so sorry... for me... or a Harper's self pity storm sounds like this: Jimmy Eat World - My Sundown https://youtu.be/y5D8Bieylck
I am a very sorry and trying Human Being... LOL gotta laugh or I'll keep crying...
or... Mad World - Gary Jules https://youtu.be/4N3N1MlvVc4
blessings
chuck 🔥💖🔥
Don't worry, the CDC has made a deal with multi-millionaire fauci and billionaire gates to fund dozens of Chinese operated bio labs all for the sake of saving us from non-existent viruses.
I do remember this being discovered . One of the places they mixed their evil concoction